Finally over

Christmas has always been my favorite time of year, all the fun decorating, the eggnog, people usually being more friendly(outside of shoppers), just the plain atmosphere. So when I had both my kids right before Christmas, I was ok with that. But I tell you, as they get older, the Holidays are a blur. From thanksgiving to after Christmas is so hectic. Especially working retail. Planning both the kids' friends party's which they each get their own cake specially made by mom, then the family birthday with another special cake, and all those cupcakes to school. Then comes work and sleep. Then there's trying to shop for birthday and Christmas. Keeping the house clean, and wait, I know I have to do laundry somewhere in there. So needless to say, this year I didn't get any Christmas cards out, but to keep the stress off, I told my self I will just do New Year cards, after the new year. Next year I will start planning in July. Probably not but we'll see.
As for the kids, Bradlee turned 8 and Emily 6. Emily is missing 4 front teeth, I will have to get a current picture of her, and Bradlee, well, he has been growing his hair out for a couple years now, but I pretty much cut it all off. I was trying to trim it, and was like what the heck. He was NOT happy. I will get new pictures posted on myspace soon. We got a new camera in June and it broke in Nov., we just got around to getting a new one a couple weeks ago(in time for the birthdays?), and wouldn't you know it, the charger didn't work, so I didn't have a camera for the birthdays. But we finally got that taken care of, so soon I will get both pictures of the kids up.
I hope that everyone had a good holiday ( although it's finally over) =)

ugh

So, it's been a while since I've posted. Life is crazy fast. Getting ready for the kids' birthday's and for the holidays now. I can't believe that Brad will be 8 and Emily 6. I'm at some sort of cross roads in my life now, I don't know what to do with it all, what I want to be when I grow up. Wait, I think I am all grown up. yep, being married with kids and bills and all those fun things, I just thought that by now I would know more about what I want. We moved to CT a couple years ago, and this past April we moved back. I think that if I would have came out to visit that I may not have pushed moving back so hard. Don't get me wrong, I love being by family, I just miss it being me, my husband and kids. There was so much to do out in CT and so much that I wanted to do before we moved back. The kids loved it out there. Now I live with the thought of did I do the right thing, like all the time. I want to buy a home, but the market is so bad right now, but we are trying to take care of finances right now, 2 long distant moves in as many years hurts. As for my job, I don't want a new one but I am so fustrated. So for now, I will learn to love most of my job, think of the experiences that I am giving my kids, pay off debt, try to stay in touch with people that I know I shouldn't let stay strangers, and try to take life one day at a time. At 30, I am still wondering what I want out of life. I want to be happy and laugh, and raise wonderful kids, and spend more time with my husband, and have girls night out. Six and 8, time flys.

hey you

So, so much going on. I have to say, I am really wanting to do more. I work, clean, sleep, and my family and friends get squeezed in. I miss having girls days out. I went to my friends son 1st birthday the other day, and saw people that I haven't seen in years. So my mid year resolution (I guess you could say that) is to connect with past friends and spend time with everyone. I think that time gets away from everybody and before you know it it's been years. So to all my friends past and present, I seriously think of you often, you just may not know it.

what's goin on

So, I have been busy as usual. Not the kind of busy of having a socially exciting life, the type that involves being a working mom. For June, my kids spent that month with their grandparents in Montana, and unfortunately I did nothing exciting. I did start a new job that month, but that's it. The rest of the summer has flown by, I have only had one weekend off, and have hardly spent any good time with my kids. A couple of weeks ago I went with my mom and sister to Fort Bragg, but I could only get part of the time off, so it wasn't as long as I thought it would be. We went to the Redwoods, and that was awesome. My kids start school next week, and I can't wait. I also am going to start a new job. I am working at Fashion Bug as the co-manager, but I don't think it's a match for me. I happened to go for an impromptu interview elsewhere and got the job. So I am going to put in my notice and move forth. This new one is closer and better hours, although training is by sunrise mall, so I am not looking forward to that drive. Anyone who knows me know I HATE to drive. I will drive when needed, I just think there are horrible drivers, and I have better things to do than spend my time in the car. (more than necessary anyway). So, I hope that my new job works, and that things go happy, and that anyone who reads this has a good day =)

not much new

So, how sad is my life that when it comes time to write all I can think about is what I watch on t.v.
I was so disappointed in AI last night. I'm not sure who I want to go, but I want Melinda to stay. I also am way into Dancing with the Stars. I watched it last season, and it is a fantastic show. If I had time I would so take up dancing.
Getting settled into CA stuff is taking so much longer than I wish. I am looking for a better job, as is Guner. I have had allergies so horrible that I am miserable.
Those of you who know me, I am always coloring my hair and what not. The other morning I was looking at my hair in the mirror trying to figure out what to do next, and oh my god. Where on earth did all this grey come from. I went to Sally's, got my coloring stuff and did my hair. I am not looking forward to color my hair to cover it. Because I am NOT going grey!!!
If something eventful happens, I will be sure to post, but excitement is not in my life right now. Just the regular day to day stuff.

It has been such a busy month. We are now out in Cali, and everything has been crappy. It is good to be back, but problems with the movers, of not only our stuff but our car. Guner's job didn't work out as we hoped and neither did mine. So I have been busy looking for a decent job, getting the kids in school, setting up home and all the fun things that go with moving and being a parent. We don't have a DVR anymore (COX back east rocks!), so I miss so much T.V. I use to record everything and watch late at night when the kiddlings were asleep. I do try to watch AI. I haven't made a comment about it recently (besides being busy), mainly because I was so disappointed in Sanjya being there still. But, yeah he's gone. Last night charity show was just sooo long, and it's cool that no one left, but poor Jordin, what a heart attack she must have had. I still don't have an ultimate fave, but I like Chris and Melinda (as I have said before). But these are just my opinions, and we'll see what happens next week.

Seriously, again

Seriously, I am moving back. i really thought it would be different out here, and I never wanted to move again, so soon. In the last 9 years I have moved as many times. I really want to settle. I am excited to move back to Cali. We had gave thought of moving to Utah serious consideration, but jobs are already formed in Cali. I just am so excited to get back west. First, the weather. There was a huge storm last week, and there is so much snow and we are barely topping the forecast with 40 degrees. I've come to learn the New England weather sucks. It is like Seattle, rains every season but winter, then we get snow. Arg. As for moving, things are not going according to what I would say smooth. We do however have our airline tickets. We fly out April 3, late at night. Yeah. All the other details are still being done. I try to remain positive, so until we meet again, keep smiling.

life comes at you fast

i never thought of myself as one who takes big chances. I like to have fun, but keep it safe. I thought moving to the east would be great, a big safe chance. I took the chance and it was safe, but now we are moving back. Now driving out here, that's a big unsafe chance. Lights and stop signs are just suggestions. I have never seen so many people just go. in the wrong lane, just turn your blinker on and go, no matter who's in the way, even if it means crossing 4 lanes of traffic. before I moved here, I always saw double parking on movies, not so now. You just park your car for whatever reason in front of whomever and you can even leave the car on with the music blasting. Bradlee and I went to the store and there was a persons car left on with the 'g' music blaring and no one inside(parked in the driving lane), he was 'Wow mom, how does that car talk'. Don't even get me started on the traffic at my kids school. But like I said we are moving back. The moving truck comes on the 27th of this month, so we have been packing and selling stuff. I am so excited to get home. So, I will try to keep on things during this. Until next time......

american idol again

ok, so I wanted to do this to keep people up to date on my life, but I just need to get out a little AI stuff. Boring. Same as last week. I still like Chris and Blake the most as far as the guys go. I want to like Brandon, but I still need a little help. For the girls, I want to cry. Antonella is just not good. Last week I forgot to mention, that I do like Sabrina, I hope that she does well. And of course, Lakisha, and my fav. so far is Melinda. I have a DVR and I want to fast forward through so much of it, but I do listen to each person, and cringe for most. I hope tonight has the right people going home, or I should say, the right people staying. As for now, I will leave this at what it is, my thoughts on AI.

another American Idol blob

So, ok, I have been in love with American Idol for ever. But, seriously, this year has yet to win me over. It is pretty boring. If, and it's a big IF, I had to pick who I like for boys it would be Blake and Chris(the one who sang Geek in the pink). I enjoyed them the other night. But that's it. For the girls, awe, I don't know. Antonella just needs to go. Obviously Lakisha has a fantastic voice, and I also have liked Melinda. I don't have a favorite girl yet either. Every other year I have had a favorite right from the go, so I hope these stay in the running, or that the others step way up, or next week will be another boring week for me. I am not a qualified judge, but if these songs were on in my car, the scan button would be going for a while.

so here we go

So, I am finally coming into the times, at least as far as blogging goes. When I think of someone writing on the computer I think back to Doogie Houser, or Dana on the X-files in the beginning. When they wrote at the end of the episode. I look back at my life so far, and I can't believe how time goes by so fast. One of the main reasons that I decided to finally blog, is just that, time goes by fast and I don't stay connected to those in my life as well as I would like. I don't have a blackberry, or an i pod, or even a blue tooth. I do use email and have a cell phone but I am still trying to catch up to everyone. Living across the country from everyone is so hard. I have so many thoughts going on in my mind, and I hope that I am able to keep up on this to let those I know be able to see whats going on. I will try to write as often as I can, only time will tell. I hope to all that you have a good day.