what me? conservative

So, first post of the year. So far, not bad. I get to be in my friend Belinda's wedding this summer. I am so excited for her and I feel so lucky that she has chosen me to share in her special day. I just wish she didn't live so far. San Dimas, here I come. I go visit her next month and I can't wait. Belinda has been here for me and has been such a great friend. I am so happy for her. work, work and more work, nothing new. I guess glad to have a job, plus I have met so many wonderful people there.
I must say, I have been looking at my life lately, and where I am and where I want to be. What type of person I am and if I can accept it. The word conservative has came up a lot lately to describe me. So I would think about it and be like, what? But then I really think about it. I went out with a new friend last weekend and had an experience I have never dealt with. Now, I may not know how to handle some situations, but I guess that's cuz my life hasn't been down many roads. Anyhow, I was thinking of my evening, and yes, thinking of how conservative my life is. I think I am OK with it. What is conservative and how does it fit me. I am honest, the main reason for this is that I have a horrible memory, but why lie. I often have the mouth of a sailor. I don't like attention on me. I don't like to be mean, but I can argue like %$#&. I guess I do what's right, I just do what I want to do. Things like this, I think about, and wonder who I really am. I think this year is like going to be some kind of self discovery. Seems to be the path I'm on.
The new friend I went out with is fantastic. We have lots of similarities, but are completely different, she has lived a life I couldn't dream of. She has a heart of gold, and is not conservative. I do hope that our friendship grows.
Not sure if I make much sense, but it's late and I have a lot on my mind.
this has to be a better year than the last.

another day

As I look back and reflect on this year and think of what I'm thankful for, I actually have to think. I'm not trying to sound ungrateful, it's just been a craptastic year. Besides being truly grateful that everyone I love is healthy, I have a job and gas has finally gone down, this year has been really really hard. I am thankful that my kids know I love to laugh and that know little things that make me smile and that they do what they can to make this happen. I love my kids oh so much. i am so glad for my friends and really glad I met some really great ones this year. My boss, who is always there to listen to me about anything anytime, he's been so helpful. to Allyson, who always seems to know when I need a slight pick me up and puts notes on my desk, or brings me home made cookies. My mom, for helping me when I need it. My sister for letting me use her car, and for being there. Although Guner(Mike) and myself have had a difficult year, I would really like to thank him for putting up with me for the last 10 years, and for helping me move countless times this year( and every year), and for trying his best to be there for me and the kids. I wish things could worked out different. I am going to make this coming year better than this year. I am ready for a great year.

another day

So, today is my Friday. I am so tired. I have closed so much at work this past week. Tomorrow will definitely be day of relax. Last week I went on a field trip with my son which I mentioned before, however, I didn't mention something. My son is getting older and in many ways he still acts like a small child. When I take him to school, he no longer likes to give me a hug goodbye or hold my hand. Sad, but he is growing up. On our field trip though, he held my hand, and on the bus he put my arm around him and leaned on me. It was soooo nice. Times like this are so wonderful. Brad is growing up so fast and every now and again he lets me be mom in public. It was a good day with him. Well, I guess it's time to try to go to sleep, and enjoy tomorrow.

Day with my kid and his class

Today I went on a field trip with my son's second grade class. What an incredibly long day. We went to the crest theater and saw Henry and Mudge. I guess that it is a series of books that they read in class. My son was like, 'Mom, this is NOT a play, it is a musical'. Which he was right. It was cute, but the room was full of kids, sitting that long is hard. I think the bus ride there and back was longer. It was nice spending the day with Bradlee though. However, I have a HUGE headache now.

Tuesday Nights

Another night. I close at work on Tuesday's. Tonight was alright. I must say I have learned to have fun, I normally am busy and try to do so much, and I decided to have more fun cuz yes yes, everyone else is. So I jumped on that bandwagon. I do my job, I just have fun. That said, I now have to unwind, but I am off tomorrow. So this past weekend, I went jet skiing with Cassie and Alex and what fun. Brad had so much fun, I had him ride with me, and he normally is hesitant with things, but he loved it. The weather was beautiful and it was a nice Easter. Not much else going on with me, just working out, and excited to get the DWTS video to work out to. I would love to take up dancing, so this will have to do (for now). I don't have a fave yet on the actual DWTS, but it's not Kristie Y.

Arg.....

Guitar Hero. Lets just say that I need practice, and possibly lots of it. My 8 year old is super at it, and I just need lots of practice. So this is something new that I have been doing. I am trying to do more, although I'm not sure a game counts. But hey. I have been sick for this past week and have lost my voice. My kids have been out of school for spring break, and I had plans to do all sorts of fun stuff, but being sick has not made that a reality. I took a couple of extra days off of work to be with them. I have seriously enjoyed being with them more, we needed mommy and kid time. Work is work, and its alright, so nothing new there. For S. Patty's day, we went to Streets of London with some friends (Belinda you rock drunk) and I had so much fun. My face hurt from laughing so much, needless to say we don't go out much. That is one thing I am trying to change. (Hence the trying new things as stated above) If it takes St. Patty's day to get me out, lets have it come every week. Well, not much new is going on. I must say David Cook , Michael, and Brooke are my fav's on AI, just to throw that out. We all now Archie will do good no matter what. For now , later :D

Finally over

Christmas has always been my favorite time of year, all the fun decorating, the eggnog, people usually being more friendly(outside of shoppers), just the plain atmosphere. So when I had both my kids right before Christmas, I was ok with that. But I tell you, as they get older, the Holidays are a blur. From thanksgiving to after Christmas is so hectic. Especially working retail. Planning both the kids' friends party's which they each get their own cake specially made by mom, then the family birthday with another special cake, and all those cupcakes to school. Then comes work and sleep. Then there's trying to shop for birthday and Christmas. Keeping the house clean, and wait, I know I have to do laundry somewhere in there. So needless to say, this year I didn't get any Christmas cards out, but to keep the stress off, I told my self I will just do New Year cards, after the new year. Next year I will start planning in July. Probably not but we'll see.
As for the kids, Bradlee turned 8 and Emily 6. Emily is missing 4 front teeth, I will have to get a current picture of her, and Bradlee, well, he has been growing his hair out for a couple years now, but I pretty much cut it all off. I was trying to trim it, and was like what the heck. He was NOT happy. I will get new pictures posted on myspace soon. We got a new camera in June and it broke in Nov., we just got around to getting a new one a couple weeks ago(in time for the birthdays?), and wouldn't you know it, the charger didn't work, so I didn't have a camera for the birthdays. But we finally got that taken care of, so soon I will get both pictures of the kids up.
I hope that everyone had a good holiday ( although it's finally over) =)