again

Hehe. Wow, once again, I forgot I had this. So I am gonna write just a short bit. Just to say this year has been really good. I have an amazing boyfriend and things are going really really well. My job is good and my kids are still amazing. Brad is almost out of elementary. He starts middle school next year. AHHHHH Emily will be in 5th. So who knows, maybe I will actually write on this thing more like I have vowed to many many times! haha

In my readings of all my older posts, I am disappointed. I really need to make some decisions with my life and move forward. I have really had a few not so great years, which maybe someday I will openly discuss, but I just am not any farther in life than I was 3 years ago.
This has to change.
I read my past posts and they are not happy, and I usually am a happy person.
They kind of rain on their own parade.
So, I vow to make the rest of this year better.
I have goals in life, but they are long term. I need to set short term ones.
I need to look back and be happy with what I have done and accomplished.
Now my kids are pretty amazing.
Yay for that.
and I have some good friends.
yay for that.
we are healthy
Yay
and I have a steady job
another yay
and I have my entire life in front of me
a big yay for that!

long time friend

oh my....
time flies. I actually forgot I had this, then I forgot the password. I have since changed my email address, so I had to think to find it.
The last year or so, wow, lots have happened.
I was promoted at work.
I am almost divorced.. will be final soon.
with out going into too much detail, we are all healthy.
School's almost out for the summer, and the kids are going to go see their grandparents in Montana. I love that they are able to have this type of experience.
Brad is almost done with 4th grade and Em is almost done with 3rd. It's so crazy how we grow up and have kids and we don't feel as old as we are. I still talk to some friends from way back in the day, and I hope my kids stay in contact with friends they are making now, forever. So, as I always say, I need to stay current on this, maybe I will.

what me? conservative

So, first post of the year. So far, not bad. I get to be in my friend Belinda's wedding this summer. I am so excited for her and I feel so lucky that she has chosen me to share in her special day. I just wish she didn't live so far. San Dimas, here I come. I go visit her next month and I can't wait. Belinda has been here for me and has been such a great friend. I am so happy for her. work, work and more work, nothing new. I guess glad to have a job, plus I have met so many wonderful people there.
I must say, I have been looking at my life lately, and where I am and where I want to be. What type of person I am and if I can accept it. The word conservative has came up a lot lately to describe me. So I would think about it and be like, what? But then I really think about it. I went out with a new friend last weekend and had an experience I have never dealt with. Now, I may not know how to handle some situations, but I guess that's cuz my life hasn't been down many roads. Anyhow, I was thinking of my evening, and yes, thinking of how conservative my life is. I think I am OK with it. What is conservative and how does it fit me. I am honest, the main reason for this is that I have a horrible memory, but why lie. I often have the mouth of a sailor. I don't like attention on me. I don't like to be mean, but I can argue like %$#&. I guess I do what's right, I just do what I want to do. Things like this, I think about, and wonder who I really am. I think this year is like going to be some kind of self discovery. Seems to be the path I'm on.
The new friend I went out with is fantastic. We have lots of similarities, but are completely different, she has lived a life I couldn't dream of. She has a heart of gold, and is not conservative. I do hope that our friendship grows.
Not sure if I make much sense, but it's late and I have a lot on my mind.
this has to be a better year than the last.

another day

As I look back and reflect on this year and think of what I'm thankful for, I actually have to think. I'm not trying to sound ungrateful, it's just been a craptastic year. Besides being truly grateful that everyone I love is healthy, I have a job and gas has finally gone down, this year has been really really hard. I am thankful that my kids know I love to laugh and that know little things that make me smile and that they do what they can to make this happen. I love my kids oh so much. i am so glad for my friends and really glad I met some really great ones this year. My boss, who is always there to listen to me about anything anytime, he's been so helpful. to Allyson, who always seems to know when I need a slight pick me up and puts notes on my desk, or brings me home made cookies. My mom, for helping me when I need it. My sister for letting me use her car, and for being there. Although Guner(Mike) and myself have had a difficult year, I would really like to thank him for putting up with me for the last 10 years, and for helping me move countless times this year( and every year), and for trying his best to be there for me and the kids. I wish things could worked out different. I am going to make this coming year better than this year. I am ready for a great year.

another day

So, today is my Friday. I am so tired. I have closed so much at work this past week. Tomorrow will definitely be day of relax. Last week I went on a field trip with my son which I mentioned before, however, I didn't mention something. My son is getting older and in many ways he still acts like a small child. When I take him to school, he no longer likes to give me a hug goodbye or hold my hand. Sad, but he is growing up. On our field trip though, he held my hand, and on the bus he put my arm around him and leaned on me. It was soooo nice. Times like this are so wonderful. Brad is growing up so fast and every now and again he lets me be mom in public. It was a good day with him. Well, I guess it's time to try to go to sleep, and enjoy tomorrow.

Day with my kid and his class

Today I went on a field trip with my son's second grade class. What an incredibly long day. We went to the crest theater and saw Henry and Mudge. I guess that it is a series of books that they read in class. My son was like, 'Mom, this is NOT a play, it is a musical'. Which he was right. It was cute, but the room was full of kids, sitting that long is hard. I think the bus ride there and back was longer. It was nice spending the day with Bradlee though. However, I have a HUGE headache now.